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A waiter! Which is sad, since I'm not even that yet (damn outback, with your false promises).

Anyway, I felt the urge to write tonight for the first time in a while. Since I'm rusty, I'm posting the piece on LJ instead of Facebook, since I figure fewer ppl will read it here:

Christmas Cloves )
 
 
marky mark
07 October 2007 @ 11:33 pm
These are two songs I'm working on for the ECR project: 

"Buckle" (chorus paraphrased from Gerard Manley Hopkins)

You have heard the calling of a keening bell
And you have known its shattering all too well
So you’ve locked yourself in this chapel
And you keep on pulling the rope
You keep glancing up at the steeple
Still holding on to your hope

But you don’t need to hold out anymore
You need to know

That if you just buckle, the fire that will break free
Will be a billion times more lovely,
More dangerous
So buckle, and the fire that will break free
Will be a billion times more lovely,
More dangerous
So buckle

You’ve been swaddled in robes
You’ve been wrapped up in tombs
You’ve been dressed up in wounds
And strapped to a throne (2x)

And if the sky doesn’t open up for you
If you need to walk with us a little longer
If the earth chains you to the broken and the crude
If you must feel the weakness of men and never get stronger

Then what can you do, oh
What can you do
But buckle and let the world flow through you?

So buckle, and the fire that will break free
Will be a billion times more lovely,
More dangerous
So buckle, and the fire that will break free
Will be a billion times more lovely,
More dangerous
So buckle 
 
Countdown

almost inaudible conversations - we hear street directions . . . what sounds like a police interrogation

These city streets number a countdown
This city's heartbeat can't be found
And from the way these skyscrapers hunch together, 
you'd swear you see a family huddle tight against the cold night air

But instead these city streets number a countdown

So city are you etherized yet?
Because before long they'll use your ashes to seed the clouds
So you rain down on us now and water the ground and water the ground . . .

Tell me, before your morphine dripped dry did you dream
Of buildings regressing in stops and fits,
Windows shrinking to war slits

Tell me, before your morphine dripped dry did you dream
Of emaciated skylines
Cinched two belt notches too tight

Tell me, before your morphine dripped dry did you dream
Of harbors draped in velveteen
A knife ripping into the seams
It's cutting straight through to the plastiscine,
A knife ripping into the seams

Before long, they'll use your ashes to seed the clouds


And if we were to spring full-formed
From the earth, still wanting more,
Would you choke us in concrete again?
Break our knees before they bend?(repeat)

simultaneously:
a knife ripping into the seams
(we are the wreckage)

You've left us the wreckage
You've left us.
You've left us a knife ripping into the seams

They've used your ashes to seed the clouds, so will you rain down on us now and water the ground?
Water the ground, because we're ripening now, ripening now, we're ripening now

So cut us down.

 
 
marky mark
03 July 2007 @ 04:18 am
 
 
marky mark
This is based on a true story, and regardless what I may have turned it into, the source material's pretty damn interesting. I'd highly recommend reading the articles I quote from in the collage. The Rolling Stone one (surprisingly) is especially well-written. What's really cool, though, is how each article has a different take on the facts of the case. I really love those inconsistencies, since I'm trying to include Nate Ybanez as one of the main characters in a novel I'm writing for my senior thesis, and the contradictions inply that his story goes deeper than a quick skim of just one of the articles would suggest.

Anyway, like I said on myspace,

critiques/insults/love welcome )
 
 
marky mark
30 April 2007 @ 10:37 pm
so, for all the english geeks on here:

I just read "The Hollow Men" by T.S. Eliot (that's the one w/ the line about the world ending w/ a whimper, in case you were wondering), and I gotta say, I was really disappointed by my man TS

now, don't get me wrong, I'm a huge Eliot fan. "Prufrock" is still my favorite poem of all time. But in "The Hollow Men," I feel like Eliot too often dips into bland generalities. Here's a sample of the poem for reference:

Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the Shadow

For Thine is the Kingdom

Between the conception
And the creation
Between the emotion
And the response
Falls the Shadow

Life is very long

Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom


Now, I won't say that portions such as this are meaningless, just that I feel like he could have found a more interesting way of saying what he needed to say, especially considering his usual high standard. As an example, consider the potency of the line "In the room the women come and go,/Talking of Michelangelo" in encapsulating the desperate attempt at class by the prostitutes of "Prufrock". Admittedly, in the segment above, Eliot is dealing w/ very broad subject matter, which makes his job as a poet harder. Still, I kinda expected better from him.

So, what opinions do you all have?

Can a poet deal in generalities but still be successful?

Or do generalities by nature damage a poem?
 
 
marky mark
06 April 2007 @ 02:46 pm
so, I'm done with what I'll call my "first draft" of music (i.e. simple, acoustic-driven songs). I just went and counted through the various myspaces I have my "first drafts" up on, and found out that those "first drafts" have been listened to about 5000 times (w/o any promotion, so, you know, could be worse). I've recorded enough to give anyone an ep who's interested.

But after this ep, no more first drafts.

Starting this summer, I'm gonna concentrate on an entirely different sort of music than I've been recording before. I'm not quite sure what it's gonna sound like, but I know it's going to be more complex than 1 acoustic guitar pounding power chords and me belting some pop stuff. Cuz I'm tired of that.

So, stay tuned to www.myspace.com/heavenforsheep for further details
 
 
marky mark
. . . if you're bored and stumble across it, I've deleted what used to be here and posted the version of the story I submitted to class. enjoy.

A Short Story )
 
 
marky mark
13 October 2006 @ 09:28 am
i should be coming home tomorrow, just as a btw
 
 
marky mark
14 August 2006 @ 04:20 am
Tell me all about yourself

1. Name:

2. Age/Birthday:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Movie:

5. Favorite Song:

6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:

7. Favorite Book/Comic Book:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

9. Favorite TV Show:

10. Favorite Video Game/Board Game:

11. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?

12. Would you give me a kidney?

13. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

14. If you could change anything about your current life, would you?

15. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

16. Picture?
 
 
marky mark
05 August 2006 @ 11:55 am
I'm updating from the ATT Oasis tent at LOLLAPALOOZA

How friggin awesome is that?
I wasn't even planning on going to lollapalooza, I just got in for free, thanks to my amaaaazing friend Ana. She had a pass from Thursday before it all started, because her band got to take a backstage tour, so we used that to get in, going all covert style.
The security is so lax here in the morning, they didn't even look at us, we just walked in.

Gnarls Barkley in 4 more hours.

woot!
 
 
marky mark
26 May 2006 @ 03:28 pm
hellooooo lj world, long time no chat, how are y'all?
good?
lovely

I missed the whole '06 class graduating thing, hope that was/is awesome for all of you
I met you guys when you were freshman. . . so weird

In other random news, I've been told that I come across as androgynous
what do you all think? true/not true? (don't worry, i won't get offended either way, just curious)

aaaaaaaaaaannnnd much love to you all
byebye
 
 
marky mark
07 May 2006 @ 06:32 pm
so, 2 things
1. i'm coming home tomorrow
2. i lost my id, don't have money for a new one, and so the cafeteria has decided to starve me - anyone feel like feeding me?
 
 
marky mark
30 April 2006 @ 07:00 pm
So, it's really important that all of you visit www.invisiblechildren.com, a site devoted to help the children of Uganda, where the genocide occuring is worse than anywhere else in the world, including Sudan, and www.savedarfur.org, a site devoted to helping Sudan.

On that note, this is my most recent Daily Herald article:

The pictures shocked me. In one, there was a boy who could not have been more than seven years old, and his face was covered in blood, his eyes wide with horror.
To my surprise, Deepti was apologetic
"I'm sorry; you need to do your work. I just needed to show someone."
Lake Forest College Freshman Deepti Sharma was showing me pictures of the devastation in her homeland of Nepal, a country home to political unrest that exploded in riotous protests two weeks ago.
"The situation in Nepal was always bad, but the real violence started April 6th. I found out about it through Nepalese news, which I check regularly," said Sharma. "Once I found out, I searched through the New York Times. A lot of people read the New York Times, and I wanted to see if they thought it was significant. I found it, but it was buried in the International section."
Seeing these pictures, I did not understand how the world could be so oblivious; how I could be so oblivious. But once again, Sharma was understanding.
"I don't blame Americans for not knowing about the violence in Nepal; Nepal is not necessarily politically significant in the global arena. Not knowing about Nepal is fine," said Sharma.
But she went on to say, "That is not the ignorance I am worried about. At one point I heard an American ask an international student what state Russia is in. That is not fine. Not knowing about the situation in Sudan, or Rwanda, or Uganda, or Israel and Palestine, about human rights violations around the world, is not fine."
Sharma's assessment was frighteningly accurate. Even at an institution like Lake Forest College, which prides itself on its cultural diversity, ignorance regarding international issues is pervasive. A recent talk I had with a classmate at a party helped illuminate this problem to me.
This classmate had come to college with an idealistic view of the college student as a catalyst for political and social change. She had gotten involved in the College Democrats, hoping to make a contribution, hoping to make a difference. However, her hopes were quickly quashed. At the time I talked to her, she was convinced that her efforts were fruitless because college students simply did not care.
I find this apathy to be unacceptable. Unacceptable because I believe that my classmate's initial view of a college student was not simply a romantic notion. One can simply look at incidences such as the tragedy at Kent State, when college students lost their lives while protesting the Vietnam War, to see how deeply college students once cared.
And though one hopes for better results than those at Kent State, it is right that college students should care. For better or for worse, college is a time of experimentation and self-discovery. College students are old enough to begin to understand the world around them, and young enough to not be set in their ways. In other words, there is no better group to serve as the pioneers of positive social or political change.
If, then, the most dynamic age group in the country has grown apathetic enough to destroy the hopes of my idealistic classmate, the strains of apathy in America must truly run deep. In the words of Sharma, this indifference "is not fine."
We must not hold the illusion that we have progressed enough to be comfortable in our apathy, when time after time, this illusion has been shattered. In 1993, movie audiences wept over Schindler's List, and did nothing to stop the genocide in Rwanda. In 2004, movie audiences wept over Hotel Rwanda, and did nothing to stop the genocide in Darfur.
The genocide in Darfur is, in fact, ongoing. So far, more than 400,000 have been killed. This tragedy is immeasurable.
But something can still be done. The same classmate who was positive that college students simply did not care anymore had a table outside of the cafeteria last week with postcards that students could sign as part of the "Million Voices for Darfur" campaign. These same postcards can be filled out online at www.savedarfur.org.
We must not be apathetic. We must be aware. Because it's not just Germany. Because it's not just Rwanda. Because it's not just Darfur.
 
 
marky mark
14 April 2006 @ 02:07 pm
heeey
so, sorry to those of you i haven't called back or written back or etcetered (real word?) back this week, it's kinda been a crazy week.
aaaand i should really be writing my paper
buhbye now
 
 
marky mark
10 March 2006 @ 11:52 pm
i'm hooooooooome

let's hang out
 
 
marky mark
28 February 2006 @ 01:37 pm
so, i got kicked out of class for the first time in my life today, and it couldn't have come at a worse time. i haven't been able to sleep for three days, so i couldn't stay awake in class, and the teacher kicked me out, all dramatic style, me having to pack up and do the silent walk in front of everyone.

i've only slept once in the last three days, and then it was a two hour nap - during which i missed psych class for the umpteenth time and a flash board meeting

yesterday, my computer crashed right before i finished my lab to turn in, i get in to class, get my last lab handed back to me - a D, w/ the note "why was this turned in late?" even after having a long talk w/ the professor about why it was turned in late and him saying it was ok. so i didn't even bother explaining about the new lab

this morning i got my midterm back in english - a c fucking minus. no matter what else i fuck up, i could always at least ace english

last night exchanged a long series of messages w/ ethan helm about faith - he was really nice to try and help out, but i somehow feel more depressed

so this is probably just because of the lack of sleep thing, but i feel damn close to a nervous breakdown
 
 
marky mark
20 February 2006 @ 04:50 pm
okay, today officially sucks all kinds of ass
found out i'm failing a class in my major because it has the most ridiculous absences policy in the history of ever
found out a family friend of ours died a week ago and my dad didn't even bother to tell me
he died while serving in the marines - yet another reason to fucking hate george w.
this kid was one of the most fundamentally decent kids i'd ever met - he was only a year older than me, i can still remember hanging out in his basement, playing tony hawk and listening to the smashing pumkins
must february bite every year?
 
 
marky mark
19 February 2006 @ 09:13 pm
so
i'm writing a philosophy paper now on the question "does the soul exist?" and my head is spinning
partly because i'm curious and partly because i don't feel like writing this by myself, how would you all answer that question?
 
 
marky mark
17 February 2006 @ 01:49 pm
so, opening night was last night. i think it went fairly well. would've liked a better audience, though. even though it was sold out, it was a really low-energy audience, laughing and clapping at the wrong places and such
ah well, 1 down, 7 to go
which means i'll soon be only really busy, instead of really super busy, so i'll actually get to talk to some of you more often - won't that be revolutionary?
 
 
marky mark
07 February 2006 @ 08:13 pm
ok, for those that want to come to the tempest, the number for tickets is 847-735-5216. They're 3 dollars for students, 7 dollars general admission
ok, ben collapse now (being in four performance groups at once was really a retarded idea)